Token Broken

it's raining

been talkin bout my parts

today I'm

choking on brittle hearts

And all I need is a moment

a moment to breathe

maybe to feel

instead I've got a poem

a moment to seethe

'cause I'm not real

I've lived my life in drag

never a mirror

just another... flag

is anyone here

I can't see

I can't breathe

I can't be

your broken token

again

visceral entropy

within

you want inside of me

when strangled

I don't know who to tell

entangled

I dragged me back from hell

And all I need is compliance

a scrap of your time

maybe your mind

instead I've got this silence

a waste of my rhyme

No, I'm not fine

I've lived my life confused

never a mirror

always lost and abused

is anyone here

I can't see

I can't breathe

I can't be

your broken token

again

a break from your ennui

within

you want inside of me

You can't

I can't

You can't

I can't

be here

a moment to breathe

maybe to feel

a moment to seethe

'cause I'm not real

I'm not

Sleeping With Ghosts

I clutch your arm around me

holding me together

My eyes clenched tight

can't bear any light

'cause you won't hold up to it

Your touch is already insubstantial

because you're not there

Maybe you were never there

I'm sleeping with a ghost

I'm not alone

You're here with me

I'm not alone

You're right there

Hold me together

I'm not alone

I won't move

I'll stay right here

Clinging to your memory

Clinging to the dark

Clinging to you

Sleeping with your ghost

When I open my eyes

Will you have ever been here at all?

I'm not alone

I won't open my eyes

Don't leave me

Just hold me

Don't be a memory

I'm not lonely

I'm not alone

I can smell you

I can't

I can't just be sleeping with ghosts